I’ve never really had any events in my life that I needed to just get out onto paper (or a computer) until today. I’m not going to go into what it was but I was so overrun by emotion about it that the only thing I could think of was how I was going to write it. How would I even begin to say what I wanted to say?
While doing homework I had these lines running through my mind so much that I had to put aside the book and just write it. I ended up writing about 1000 words, 3 pages double spaced in a very specific kind of line structure. I’ve never written anything like that, ever. Most of my writing is creative writing in like a YA genre, not the personal connections in real life.
When I shared it with my two best friends they were both incredibly moved. I was sitting there drained from crying so much as I poured myself and my feelings into the piece, but at the same time I was relieved. I was able to get out my feelings and the fears I have through the writing in such a way as I’d never be able to express personally. I’ve seen people do this in my creative writing class, one in particular I can think of, but I’ve never had the chance to do it myself. My best friend even said that it was her favorite voice she’s read from me.
So, whenever you’re just overcome with emotions that you can’t handle keeping them in your head, write. Or for the artists out there, draw. Granted, I feel extremely drained to the point where I didn’t even watch Supernatural tonight. I just laid in bed and watched The Wind Rises (I’ve been craving Studio Ghibli the past few weeks), but I feel like I worked through those emotions in a very healthy manner. I’m able to pray and be optimistic now that my fears have been vented.
Be creative, let the emotions out and don’t let them bog you down. It’ll be okay as long as you don’t bottle them up. I have a bad habit of doing that. This time I had writing to fall on to help me up, even when I couldn’t tell my friends with simple diction.
Until later Chaos Seekers!